Sunday, August 15, 2010
During my Exam
Ah! Exams again
Oh well here it goes, my mind is just too filled with thoughts to actually really concentrate on something long enough.
As such, lying awake at night not thinking of anything really, some weird ideas and questions do pop out. I’ve always wondered, in the end, as humans we don’t really have anything to look forward to. If this life is just about enjoyment and fulfilling our desires, it’s just all fleeting satisfaction and after that what’s left?
Imagine reading a really good book or a really good manga then it ends. Once it ends you have to return to your normal real life again, and what is there is really not that interesting right? If not then you wouldn’t have picked that book up in the first place.
What’s our goal in life? Get a good career, fall in love, get married, have kids? Seems so…I don’t know…don’t you sometimes feel we’re all just following the same steps? Just watch a documentary about animals and you can see us all there just with extra stuff like air-con or cars.
As a Buddhist, I feel like I shouldn’t be so attached to material things. But then, if I don’t enjoy all these things I have (eating, watching movies, reading manga) then I really have nothing to look forward to.
Doesn’t it feel like we’re just waiting and waiting and waiting for something? I’m not going to say waiting for love cause that’s just stupid I think. While a part of me believes that love can fulfill a certain part of your life, thinking that it can fulfill everything in your life is just too naïve and a product of reading too many romance stories.
There’s so much I want to say, but I have no idea how to express them, its not like I can draw or express myself through music. And while probably nobody is going to read this I feel so much better now. Time to read some fanfiction then hit the books! I hope! :D
P.S = Well its no longer exam time anymore, so im back to just being a total dumbass! hahaha
Oh well here it goes, my mind is just too filled with thoughts to actually really concentrate on something long enough.
As such, lying awake at night not thinking of anything really, some weird ideas and questions do pop out. I’ve always wondered, in the end, as humans we don’t really have anything to look forward to. If this life is just about enjoyment and fulfilling our desires, it’s just all fleeting satisfaction and after that what’s left?
Imagine reading a really good book or a really good manga then it ends. Once it ends you have to return to your normal real life again, and what is there is really not that interesting right? If not then you wouldn’t have picked that book up in the first place.
What’s our goal in life? Get a good career, fall in love, get married, have kids? Seems so…I don’t know…don’t you sometimes feel we’re all just following the same steps? Just watch a documentary about animals and you can see us all there just with extra stuff like air-con or cars.
As a Buddhist, I feel like I shouldn’t be so attached to material things. But then, if I don’t enjoy all these things I have (eating, watching movies, reading manga) then I really have nothing to look forward to.
Doesn’t it feel like we’re just waiting and waiting and waiting for something? I’m not going to say waiting for love cause that’s just stupid I think. While a part of me believes that love can fulfill a certain part of your life, thinking that it can fulfill everything in your life is just too naïve and a product of reading too many romance stories.
There’s so much I want to say, but I have no idea how to express them, its not like I can draw or express myself through music. And while probably nobody is going to read this I feel so much better now. Time to read some fanfiction then hit the books! I hope! :D
P.S = Well its no longer exam time anymore, so im back to just being a total dumbass! hahaha
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